Update

Maybe this is just a hallow greeting through the internet but hello.Nothing much has been going on just normal college life things have been slow.Just what a normal lonely young adolesent male homosapian would go through.Exams are near and i've been studying kinda hard got to raise my cgpa back to 3.0 as i've got dreams to go overseas.If i do get a chance it will be great.The experiance would probably help me grow mentally and my poetry might mature as well.Talking about that i've been collecting my poems to publish i have a few now but i'm not sure if its any good we'll see.Well a lot as changed since the last time i wrote.I've changed.Romance wise still no luck ( i just heard as sarcastic laugher echo in my head ).That's all for now till we meet again 

Broken

Its been this way forever.It feels like a journey that never ends constantly searching from that one thing.Imagine you look up its colorful yet its cloudy and that clouds are your insecurities and you look up with hope you see colors you love they come and go like the seasons.Its been a journey for me but I've yet to find it in my case its love its always been and will be.Which kind of love you may ask ? the answer is any that makes me feel i'm actually important and special for once.Remember the colorful world i was talking about when you look around you find this floating balls of light well those are the people important to you they float along you and illuminating you on the cloudy days.Well this journey has lead me into a lot of problems some might even remain forever.I'm broken inside i'll always want someone to love me and i get jealous when someone gets close to the ones i love by that i still mean all types of love.I wonder sometimes if i will ever have partial little genetic copies of me ? if i do i want to make sure i love them with all i have and show them. Cause I've never had that all I've had is things given to me to quench the absence of love and out of guiltiness.It might all come out as desperate but there a big hole inside.Sometimes i even get tired from all the walking in that colorful world its kind of weird i don't know how to say it.At the end i just want to be loved like everyone else.I feel weak at times cause when people are kind to me my heart waivers so much cause it has never experience it before and i get to get a little attached.I wish i could make this feeling go away but it wont.

Living Diamonds

What are living diamonds you may ask ? Well that's the word that best describes my 3 dear friends.Why do i call them that? well diamonds are precious stones that glow and sparkle and always attracts your attention.Thus the analogy of the diamond.The living part of course is because their living moving weird mammals.So how about me ? I think i am the miner who goes to the mine just to look at this diamonds in admiration and without them i'm the miner who losses his sense of purpose 

Vinee!

Check me out fellow underworld dwellers !

https://vine.co/u/1165046725627584512

I deserve to be loved too right ?

Question

Its 3.20 a.m and the question running through my head is should i make a bowl of instant noodles for myself ?

Snap

With a blink of an eye the year is almost going to end.Well that sentence has nothing to do with this post tho.Since yesterday was Halloween i'll share a creepy personal experience. I was in kedah and about 8 years old when it happened.It was a rainy night and i went to bed like usual at that time i was sleeping with my dad then suddenly i saw a figure by the door with red eyes holding a scythe it was wearing a black robe like the ones dementors had on.I desperately tried to wake my dad up but my hands moved as though time had slowed down and as i was just about to touch my dad i snapped back.I was sweating profusely and all the doors were open.Till today i don't know is it a dream or it was real cause it felt so real that i can't differentiate.Maybe the grim reaper came to take my soul that day? Who know he might come again.